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Hey... I tried...
Saturday, April 10, 2010
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This post will just be some memories of mine... extracts of my diaries/letters... Emo post this time~
Hey… when you read this letter, you would have probably opened the box already… I kept all our memories inside that box… I wrote a diary of the 2 months 17 days that we were together… I still remembered when I first asked you for stead… It was on 2 October 2009, 8pm… We were chatting with each other and you made me say out who I like… To be honest, I have never regretted saying out to you… On 3 October 2009, 12.45pm… I realized what you mean when you asked me to listen to the song ‘Love, sex and magic’ … That was the first time I really fell in love with a girl… to me, my ex was just another nobody… someone that have the status of ‘my girlfriend’… We really never held hand before… Do you remember when I told you that I’ve never hug any other girls or held any other girl’s hands before except yours.. It’s really true… When you wouldn’t believe me.. my heart really broke… Though I didn’t blame you for it, as I really love you a lot then… Do you remember… On 31 November, about a week before our 2nd month, was the first time we went for a scout training together. It was also the first time you lied on my shoulder in front of others. Do you know how happy I was when you did that… You told me that you like to lie on my shoulder and hear my say I love you. I still remember that. Because everything you told me. I still remember them. However, our relationship underwent a change during 7/11/2009… during the scout’s 40th anniversary campfire… I do not want to talk about that… I know it is my fault.. and I am sorry for what happened.. The book that is included in the box was something I got for you after that day, I wanted to give it to you when we went to put up the banners, but you seemed so emo that day… On 31 november 2009, you passed me the teddy bear that is inside this box, I’ve been sleeping with it every night onwards… On that day, I tried to give you the necklace and the keychain too… but you didn’t want to take it… I really didn’t understand why than… Remember when I asked you to pass Hui Ling’s souvenior to her too? You immediately didn’t want to and turned emo… I understand how you feel than… I guess all I can say now is that. I’m sorry.
I still remember on December 21. 1 day after we broke up, I went to your house in the early morning as I couldn’t sleep, but I didn’t knock on the door. I didn’t dare to… Truth to be told, that was not the first time I went… Everytime I made you angry, I would go to somewhere near your house and think if I should go up… But every time, I didn’t… I did not know why myself, perhaps it’s because I’m scared your parents will scold, or perhaps it’s because I felt ashamed to face you… I’m sorry. That’s all I can say…
Yet... when you received the box... you just threw it away..... Hey... I tried... That's all I can say to myself...
Hey… when you read this letter, you would have probably opened the box already… I kept all our memories inside that box… I wrote a diary of the 2 months 17 days that we were together… I still remembered when I first asked you for stead… It was on 2 October 2009, 8pm… We were chatting with each other and you made me say out who I like… To be honest, I have never regretted saying out to you… On 3 October 2009, 12.45pm… I realized what you mean when you asked me to listen to the song ‘Love, sex and magic’ … That was the first time I really fell in love with a girl… to me, my ex was just another nobody… someone that have the status of ‘my girlfriend’… We really never held hand before… Do you remember when I told you that I’ve never hug any other girls or held any other girl’s hands before except yours.. It’s really true… When you wouldn’t believe me.. my heart really broke… Though I didn’t blame you for it, as I really love you a lot then… Do you remember… On 31 November, about a week before our 2nd month, was the first time we went for a scout training together. It was also the first time you lied on my shoulder in front of others. Do you know how happy I was when you did that… You told me that you like to lie on my shoulder and hear my say I love you. I still remember that. Because everything you told me. I still remember them. However, our relationship underwent a change during 7/11/2009… during the scout’s 40th anniversary campfire… I do not want to talk about that… I know it is my fault.. and I am sorry for what happened.. The book that is included in the box was something I got for you after that day, I wanted to give it to you when we went to put up the banners, but you seemed so emo that day… On 31 november 2009, you passed me the teddy bear that is inside this box, I’ve been sleeping with it every night onwards… On that day, I tried to give you the necklace and the keychain too… but you didn’t want to take it… I really didn’t understand why than… Remember when I asked you to pass Hui Ling’s souvenior to her too? You immediately didn’t want to and turned emo… I understand how you feel than… I guess all I can say now is that. I’m sorry.
I still remember on December 21. 1 day after we broke up, I went to your house in the early morning as I couldn’t sleep, but I didn’t knock on the door. I didn’t dare to… Truth to be told, that was not the first time I went… Everytime I made you angry, I would go to somewhere near your house and think if I should go up… But every time, I didn’t… I did not know why myself, perhaps it’s because I’m scared your parents will scold, or perhaps it’s because I felt ashamed to face you… I’m sorry. That’s all I can say…
Yet... when you received the box... you just threw it away..... Hey... I tried... That's all I can say to myself...
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